Play time in the household.

In case anyone notices and gets concerned, the small jack russel does have a broken tail. We got him that way. His sister likes to pull other does out from under furniture by the tail. She did that to our dog when he was only weeks old. We didn’t get his sister, we only got him out of that litter.

Even though they sound mean, none of these dogs have ever hurt each other, other dogs, or ourselves. They’re just very talkative during playtime.

Uh, so, turns out I have a symptom of depression called inappropriate guilt and it’s so severe that it has been the main reason I cannot function.

Like, anything I do that I think hurts or may hurt another person sends me down Guilt Alley and I end up in major depressive spirals as a result. This is why I have no close relationships, why I don’t talk to people for days on end, and why I was a recluse for four years. I wasn’t afraid of people. I was afraid of my reaction to my.own guilt when I would make a mistake and get any sort of perceived scorn.

This also impacts my writing, or lack there of. I avoid writing because I’m terrified that my writing will make someone feel bad. For the commission, I’m afraid the money/wait won’t be worth it and the people waiting on that story may feel angry that I haven’t written it yet or that they’ll be angry over the work I put out. For all my other edited work, which I knly put out one, the guilt of making people angry over accidentally stolen ideas and other nonsense makes it hard for me to put words on page. The guilt of possibly hurting someone is always THERE.

My therapist is introducing me to some coping skills that should help with my inappropriate guilt. It’s going to take some time though. I’ve been dealing with this for so long.

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Music asks

🖤 Song you’re currently listening to

❤ Song that saved your life or had a great impact on you

💌 Top three favorite love songs

🥺 Song that always makes you cry

☺️ Song that makes you think of your crush

🙃 Top songs that make you feel invincible (bad bitch tracks)

🎵 Favorite song from a musical

💙 Favorite instrument

😍 Songs that make you feel like your aesthetic (ex. Grunge girl, hippie, etc.)

👀 Emo music, death metal, or pop?

👉👈 Songs that help you get over a breakup?

🥴 Shuffle your playlist and name the song that comes up first

🌸 Favorite song in a foreign language? (Foreign being not your native tongue)

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Tmw you want to be a force for positivity but you really don’t feel mentally well and you need a pick-me-up.